Why the hell I got up this morning?

This month has been quite weird.

New job, back to parent's home, a niece to take care of (very often lately...) and my mind full of things to adapt and to think about. 

To all this I have to add the driving lessons. 

People always say that your mood is very important when you drive. If you're in a bad mood, surely, you won't do it well. 

It's a big truth. 

So with all these changes, all my messy mind, ah! and I forgot to mention that my wisdom teeth are paining from time to time again, and that every virus around becomes part of me, as it's always happened, you can imagine how I am driving... 

It's becoming really hard, and though I don't know why, I'm taking it too seriously, so when I do it wrong I get very annoyed... I know I can't be angry, that I should take a big breath and go on again, having fun with it and being very careful and conscient of what I'm doing every minute while driving... 

I know the theory. That's the problem. But I can't think properly when I'm on the wheels. It sounds horrible, I know. But it's what is happening. 

Today it was a very bad day. After the class I really wanted to cry. I couldn't. I had too many people next to me. 

I should relax and think that today and yesterday have been difficult days in all senses, and that it can affect me too. So it's not a reason to blame me or my driving ability. 

I thought this was going to be easier for me. And it is not at all. 

Be patient. Relax. And try to enjoy. I should repeat it all time. Don't you think?