This is becoming a long path... a path that I could have better prepared... I'm not very proud of the work I've done with my course planning... it could have been better... and I could have studied much more... 

Life is putting my feet on the ground at least... 

I still have to do the next part... and although I need time to prepare many things, it is being too long for me anyway. I want to finish and to forget about it at least for a month... I need holidays.

I'm not very optimistic with what my life can be next year... I'm sure it is due to this lack of effort I didn't do the first half of the course... I deserve it. 

But I'm nervous. I can't avoid it. 

I'll tell you when I finish... I have to do my best work now... I just need some more strength to avoid lazyness and nervousness take all my will with them.